Good-bye moominland

She's leaving.

I can't believe it.

I'm happy for her, I won't deny it, but it seems so... unreal. It seems like the kind of things that are only possible in a soap opera, or an anime.

I accept that by doing this I'm being hypocrite, all this time I was able to meet with her and I didn't but know that she will go away, immediately I have this urge to see her and give her a drawing.

I don't give my drawings for free, not anymore. I don't know if somebody will ever be willing to pay in exchange for one of my pieces but right know, I'm doing it because is the least I can do for her, even if it is meaningless for her in comparison to me. 

I hope she finds everything she wanted since I met her, I hope she invites me one day XD

Dunno, I'm genuinely happy about her. I guess it gives me hope, nevertheless I know what the hall do I want or not.  

Meanwhile, I just have four days left to finish it and I simply started about one hour ago. I'm planning on doing it lineart-based mostly. 

About my mood... I 'm not sure if I'm getting better or worse. It is not clear. Maybe I'm back to normal, that would explain the emotional ups and downs.

I wish I had someone who would listen to me anytime I needed it. Anytime.