I'm scared.
I always am.
I'm surprised I can live with so much fear. 
While it's not a surprise that I live like I do. Without doing nothing really.
Just... attending to classes... Language, music and major related ...but just classes in the end. 
The thing is, when I'm with him, I can't think like I always do. I can make jokes because it's my way to release all the tension I get from being with him, but my mind goes all screwed up. I can't talk seriously and all my answers turn out plain stupid. I'm not sure why. 
But at least I think it got better... just a little. 
Could it be? 
That he scares me?
Wouldn't be so strange, a lot of things scare me.